I've been in a bit of a funk lately. I'm sure it's because of all that's gone on lately with youngest daughter. Besides her medical issues, we're still dealing with some stinky attitudes at times.
There are days when I feel overwhelmed. Mother Teresa once said, "God will never give us more than we can handle. I just wish He didn't trust me so much." I totally agree.
But I'm realizing something. It's okay to feel that way (some might even say that I deserve to). God didn't tell us not to cry, not to hurt. He just said, "Don't fear."
I recently read (and re-read) the book "One Thousand Gifts" by Amy Voskamp. There was a quote in the first chapter that really hit me.
"Maybe you don't want to change the story, because you don't know what a different ending may hold."
I admit, there have been many times I've wondered, "what if?" What if my daughter didn't have this disease...this attitude... and on and on. It may have been different- but not necessarily better. I need to fully trust God, because He sees the whole picture. He understands on the days when I'm feeling overwhelmed and weak.
This song says it better than I can.