Sunday, February 26, 2012

Strong Enough

I've been in a bit of a funk lately.  I'm sure it's because of all that's gone on lately with youngest daughter.  Besides her medical issues, we're still dealing with some stinky attitudes at times.

There are days when I feel overwhelmed.  Mother Teresa once said, "God will never give us more than we can handle.  I just wish He didn't trust me so much."  I totally agree.

But I'm realizing something.  It's okay to feel that way (some might even say that I deserve to).  God didn't tell us not to cry, not to hurt.  He just said, "Don't fear." 

I recently read (and re-read) the book "One Thousand Gifts" by Amy Voskamp.  There was a quote in the first chapter that really hit me.

"Maybe you don't want to change the story, because you don't know what a different ending may hold."

I admit, there have been many times I've wondered, "what if?"  What if my daughter didn't have this disease...this attitude... and on and on.  It may have been different- but not necessarily better.  I need to fully trust God, because He sees the whole picture.  He understands on the days when I'm feeling overwhelmed and weak.

This song says it better than I can.

1 comment:

Veronica said...

You right, it is okay to have times when we just "let it all hang out" and tell it like it really is. God is certainly big enough to handle it. I am praying for you and your daughter. Cannot imagine what it must feel like to give your all to help her and then in turn she responds with an attitude. I know that it must be very hard for her to, to be sick most of the time.
3 simple words have worked for me..."God Help Me!". There is certainly nothing magical about those words and they are not a formula for relief, but it seems everytime I get overwhelmed with hurt, sadness, anger, you name it...if I can get myself off to a quiet place and say out loud those very words, God sends His Holy Spirit to comfort me. And though the situation may not attitude does.
Praying for you dear lady...God is able and faithful. Veronica